The Story of my Life....

It's another night that I can't sleep. I have a rough time falling to sleep anyway, but the last three nights seem to be worse than usual. I don't know if it was the excitement of the holidays, my parents coming in for a visit, or for the sad, sad fact that we have yet another firefighter who was injured in a tanker truck accident and is clinging to life.

I have looked back at the line of duty deaths that I work and it's interesting because I usually start to get really antsy before I am alerted of a death. I really don't know how to explain the feeling I get, but it's like I can't get myself to sit still or concentrate for very long. I almost have a little anxiety. Well I go this feeling the day this firefighter was involved in his accident and since then I haven't been able to sleep very well.

If this poor firefighter does die, and I pray for the sake of him and his family that he doesn't, I won't be able to work it because my parents are in town for the holidays. I feel sad that I wouldn't be able to help right away but I usually end up working with them on the long range. With many families of firefighters who have died in the line of duty, I usually spend an average of 2 years working with them.

Sometime tomorrow I will post all of our weekend pictures including the Christmas Day pictures. My parents are coming into town and I am super excited! I will try to keep posting while they are here.

Is Christmas really over with? Next Christmas I am hoping and praying that we will have our little one in our arms.